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You Have Everything You Ever Wanted — Why do You Feel so Empty?
On finding base and foundation
The answer is so easy it’s laying out right in front of you.
You don’t have anything.
If you feel empty, you have nothing.
A story begins: A long time ago, my mom, my sister, and myself all left an extremely abusive father and a manipulative family.
My dad’s side of the family has money. Substantially more money than my mom has, who works in retail. Substantially more money than my mom’s family has, who never really established themselves in the United States.
There I was. 16-year-old kid, 12-year-old sister, and a 36-year-old mom who are all trying to make life work.
We didn’t get our first apartment for about a year. My mom barely made enough money at that time. Nobody would rent to us, until a nice Russian man allowed us into a small apartment we still rent today. Our great-aunt, who lives in the building, vouched for us.
I was still in high school. When my coach learned that my dad had nearly killed my mom, his heart sank. He had a contact in the insurance industry who would hire me as soon as I graduated high school. My coach was a mentor and a father figure and more. He’s shown me more kindness and…
